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Counting the Cost

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Jill Duggar

7 Hours 7 Minutes

Simon & Schuster Audio

September 2023

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For the first time, discover the unedited truth about the Duggars, the traditional Christian family that captivated the nation on TLC’s hit show 19 Kids and Counting. Jill Duggar and her husband Derick are finally ready to share their story, revealing the secrets, manipulation, and intimidation behind the show that remained hidden from their fans.

Jill and Derick knew a normal life wasn’t possible for them. As a star on the popular TLC reality show 19 Kids and Counting, Jill grew up in front of viewers who were fascinated by her family’s way of life. She was the responsible, second daughter of Jim Bob and Michelle’s nineteen kids; always with a baby on her hip and happy to wear the modest ankle-length dresses with throat-high necklines. She didn’t protest the strict model of patriarchy that her family followed, which declares that men are superior, that women are expected to be wives and mothers and are discouraged from attaining a higher education, and that parental authority over their children continues well into adulthood, even once they are married.

But as Jill got older, married Derick, and they embarked on their own lives, the red flags became too obvious to ignore.

For as long as they could, Jill and Derick tried to be obedient family members—they weren’t willing to rock the boat. But now they’re raising a family of their own, and they’re done with the secrets. Thanks to time, tears, therapy, and blessings from God, they have the strength to share their journey. Theirs is a remarkable story of the power of the truth and is a moving example of how to find healing through honesty.

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  • Anonymous

    I’ve watched the Duggars out of curiosity and I found their family fascinating. I’m glad Jill was able to see through her family’s bs and make her own life. Jill you are so brave! I’m so proud of you!!

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  • Christine O.

    This book was beautifully written. Jill displayed such compassion and grace for her family even at times when they didn’t deserve it. I’m so proud of Jill and Derrick and their courage to speak out.

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  • Dorcas A.

    I was super drawn in by this book and finished it in 2 days. Growing up in IBLP, I too went through a long period of changing. As a gal who now wears pants and a nose piercing I related on many levels. Thanks for sharing your story Jill

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  • Cortney D.

    Great book! Wonderful learning tool for those navigating either the adult parenting roll or the child becoming the adult.

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  • Salvatore B.

    I have the utmost respect and admiration for Jill for writing this book. You placed yourself in such a vulnerable situation but upheld yourself with such Grace and dignity. It takes such courage to open up the way you did. I'm so proud of you for being such a beautiful godly woman and for the healing that you went through knowing that it was going to get much harder before it got better. I've asked my granddaughter to read this book, not so she can get the "nitty gritty" about your family but so that she can see how a true woman of God can love, care and show respect in all situations that God sets before us. I pray that people don't view the book as ammunition to dislike Jim Bob. I pray that everyone who reads it learns how to continue loving even though the bad times. Since we're all human and we all sin Jim Bob is no worse or better than any of us. Has he made mistakes? Yes Is he remorseful for the choices he's made? I hope so. Is he willing to make amends? My prayer is he will. Does he love his wife and children? I believe in my heart he really does. No family is without it's flaws and mistakes, ours just isn't with news crews and paparazzi chasing us down putting their own spin on it wether it's true or not. Jill I feel in my heart you are highly favored. You have an incredible husband who's obviously a God fearing man who loves and protects you as God instructed a man to do. You have three amazing and beautiful children, all blessings from God. You are so precious and I proudly encourage my daughters and granddaughters to look upon you as an example of how God would like us all to behave. I pray you feel the love many of us have for you with never having met you. God bless you and your family. Thank you for sharing your journey with us and teaching me to handle adversity with grace and dignity ❤️

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  • Kathryn Y.

    Breathtaking, eye opening, and courageously written. Well done to all involved.

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  • Anonymous

    I found her book great! It really gives a perspective from her life as a child and young adult on tv and even though she didn’t speak for her siblings it gave a sense of how things were for the whole family in terms of being on reality tv. I hope she writes another book about how her life is going now.

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  • Michelle M.

    loved it Jill was always my favorite

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  • Joannah C.

    Such a good book of faith, love, heartbreak, redemption and reconciliation. Growing up with this family and going through some of the gothard teachings as a teen, I can relate with Jill on the ‘umbrella’. The book is eye opening and I’m so glad she could finally get her voice heard. May God continue to bless you guys and your family.

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  • Anonymous

    It must have been a difficult decision and a lot of courage to write and share the truth. It definitely clarified the misinformation and speculation spread by the media. If ever they question their decision to publish this book, it is never wrong to do the right thing and to be truthful.

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